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a constant state of 'what if'
Jul. 25th, 2005 02:01 pmOh, the anxiety of everything right now. I can't focus on my work because my head won't stop spinning. I can't sleep past 6 because my brain won't stop once I'm even semi-conscious. The only time I slow down seems to be doing sudoku in the morning (and this morning it was v.easy, which meant it took me all of four minutes), and when everything comes to a halt because I've hit overload. Ergh.
I printed out a pattern for a horseshoe lace scarf. Maybe that'll help me refocus. My spinning is erratic, so my yarn is all poufy in some places and skinny in others. My dogs are extra-super-neurotic with the packing (they don't even like it when we pack a suitcase to go away for a weekend -- piles and piles of boxes and they're beside themselves). I'm looking forward to the time when anxiety gives way to excitement, but it isn't here yet.
On the other hand, I have 218 hours of sick leave, and only 144 hours (18 days x 8 hours' worth) of work remaining. I think high anxiety days may turn into mental health days in the near future.
I printed out a pattern for a horseshoe lace scarf. Maybe that'll help me refocus. My spinning is erratic, so my yarn is all poufy in some places and skinny in others. My dogs are extra-super-neurotic with the packing (they don't even like it when we pack a suitcase to go away for a weekend -- piles and piles of boxes and they're beside themselves). I'm looking forward to the time when anxiety gives way to excitement, but it isn't here yet.
On the other hand, I have 218 hours of sick leave, and only 144 hours (18 days x 8 hours' worth) of work remaining. I think high anxiety days may turn into mental health days in the near future.
